you understand?
ha, so much so that things would turn out like that.
TRUST.
i bloody hell need time to regain that,
and you said you understand.
what exactly you understand about my feelings?
understand the feeling of being neglected?
understand the feeling of being dumped?
understand the feeling of being scolded when you just call for the sake of hearing your voice?
understand the feeling of being ranked behind anything that you can think so?
understand the feeling of waiting for bloody hell long?
understand the feeling of being alone?
understand the feeling of crying EVERY NIGHT FOR WEEKS?
understand the feeling of looking at messages that melts your heart but tear mine?
and now,
TELL ME WHAT EXACTLY YOU UNDERSTAND?


sometimes i really felt like a screwdriver.
sometimes i really felt real dumb.
sometimes i really felt like a spare tyre,
someone who is always there to welcome you while you are having sweet times with others.

yes, i know you are really tired of all my nonsense.
and you think you're the only one who is tired?
what about me?
i'm not?
i also have my workload and its just that i dont give a damn to them
i will also feel stress when i bloody hell flunk my subjects while others are not.

WTHH.
I'M FEELING REAL BAD NOW.
if only there is some medication called the forget pill.

AHHH.